I’ve pondered for a while on what to tell Jackson about his sister.

I’m not religious so telling him she was an ‘Angel Baby’ never really fitted in with my beliefs or what I want him to think, but it’s the most common way of explaining the death of a baby so I went along with it.
Some people say their baby is among the stars, but I couldn’t work out how to describe that to him very well either.

Then I watched CBeebies!
On there there is a program called Cloudbabies, which the title in itself intrigued me, but as I watched I was overwhelmed by how perfect it was!
These babies live in the clouds and they dust cobwebs off the moon and paint the rainbows and put the sun to bed. They play around in the clouds with their cloud baby friends.

It’s not religious, it’s not anything, but it’s nice. It gives me something to say, and it seems right.
When we see a rainbow I can tell him that his sister and the other cloud babies painted a rainbow for us because he’s a Rainbow Baby. I see it as a way to include her in every day life.

It’s not so far removed from the ‘Angel’ idea, so if he does talk about her to other people they won’t think he’s crazy, but the main difference is that I don’t believe it. I know it’s a story made up as a preemptive answer to inquisitive questions.

Maybe I am wrong and she is an angel, but I’ve never been religious, we didn’t give her a religious funeral, and we won’t raise Jackson to be religious so it didn’t seem right to use this religious reference.

Things have a funny way of jumping out at you as ‘right’ when something fits, and this did just that.

Our little Babba Pink is playing in the clouds right now, putting the sun to bed and waking up the moon for bedtime, and who knows, maybe she will paint us a rainbow tomorrow!