It’s been almost two years since I lost my daughter and she still hasn’t got a headstone!

It’s stupid for something about as long as a tweet to take so long to write. I’ve been thinking about it the whole time but nothing has seemed right. I’d think of something, write it down, show it to people, they’d like it, and then I’d decide it wasn’t right.

I want something that shows how much she was wanted and is loved, while avoiding the classic clichés that would make her grave like all the others, but something that I will still like in 50 years time. It was tough, and has taken me forever!

Something I’ve always known I wanted, right from the start was the shape, simple and classic (though for some reason not commonly available), and that I want it pale, preferably white (maybe that means marble). I also want her name in a script font, and pink, as it makes it more her (or the personality I’ve given her.)

Lastly I really want her footprints on the top, and for them to be actual size, but they were so tiny they may look silly, so I might need to swap them for another image, or maybe add to the image to make it bigger. We will see.

So now coming up 2 years on I think I’ve chosen the wording and layout I want, only the thing is I think I’ve overthought it meaning nothing about it is simply off the peg (not that it’s totally out there!), so I now need to find somewhere that can make my vision a reality.

Let’s see how this goes and whether I need to compromise on something! I so hope not because I really like my design (I should do – it’s taken long enough)!