The scan today showed the 12mm follicle has grown to 15mm, the other one on the left has vanished and the one on the right has gone from 8mm to 11mm.
Seems my ovaries listened to me and got rid of one!
Hopefully another scan on wednesday will show the left follicle has reached 18mm and we can trigger ready for insemination on friday.
As it happens this is another preplanned week off work… how well timed was that!
Two decent size follicles at the moment – could we be looking at twins?!

I had my normal nurse back, and like a lucky charm I have a monster follicle!
It was either hiding the other day or has done some stellar growth in the last couple of days!
On my right ovary I have one follicle measuring at 8mm
On my left I have a 12mm and a 9mm

Now I’m really pleased that three follicles have taken up the challenge, however I really need one of them to disappear now as the clinic will not inseminate if there are more than 2 mature follicles!

Crossing everything that 2 keep growing and ones shrinks back!

Rescan on Monday.

There was NAFF ALL on that scan!
It was a different nurse who did it and she seemed less thorough, she took no measurements at all.
There were lots of follicles there but none standing out as bigger.
I’m taking comfort that this is a day earlier than my first scan last time so there is still time.
Another scan booked for friday.

I phoned the clinic today (Day 2 of my cycle) and was told to start the Gonal-F today.
It was day 4 last time.
Maybe this gives a higher chance of more than one follicle growing?
First scan is booked for 10th.

Grow follicles grow!

The nurse managed to get me in quickly to get my medication ready for the next cycle.
I had a few forms to re-sign and a blood test which they had somehow missed for my first cycle.
She hit a nerve when she did the blood test, never known pain like it! Shot down from my elbow to my wrist like electricity!
The plan is all the same, same dose and all, just hopefully the sperm meets the egg this time round!
I was told that if it didn’t work this cycle then the consultant was going to insist I had a HyCoSy to rule a blockage out.
Roll on January!

Saturday 2nd: Negative

Monday 4th: Negative

Tuesday 5th: Surely it would be faintly positive by now? Faulty tests? Not pregnant?

Wednesday 6th: Negative

Thursday 7th: Official test day.
I know deep down already.
Big Fat Negative.
Aunt Flo arrived a few hours later.
Nothing like rubbing salt in the wound.

A few grand gone and no exact 4 year age gap for my kids, but it was a long shot. A first attempt. All is not lost, I now get a month off, I can enjoy Christmas and I know what U am doing when I try again in January.

I thought I would be ok, but the wait, the not knowing is driving me mad.
The Schrodingers cat essence of it all.
I simultaneously am and am not pregnant.
I wanted to take an early detection test, but was warned of false positives.
I took a cheap test today expecting to see a positive line caused by the trigger injection, which I could then watch either fade away (negative) or become stronger (positive)
Nothing.
Negative.
Ok so the trigger has gone.
Will a line fade in?
I shall test daily.
I will squint for that second line.

I was told to arrive half an hour early for my 1pm appointment with a full bladder.
They were running about half an hour late.
I nearly exploded!
We were taken down with another couple and shown into a little cubicle.
I pointed out I really needed a wee and she told me that if I was uncomfortable to let a little out.
How do you calculate a little?
How do you stop peeing when you are THAT desperate?!
I counted to 10 and was slightly more comfortable!
She told me to strip from the waist and to put on a fetching blue gown with no bottom!
I was led down to the theatre and sat in one of the very undignified chair.
The consultant checked I was me and that the sample had my name on it!
He insterted the cathether through my cervix and I could watch it all on the screen as the nurse was doing an external scan at the same time.
I saw the sperm going in as a white cloud and he assured me they were all heading the right way.
It was all over and I was led back to my cubicle to get dressed.
I was given progesterone pessaries to take 2x a day until I take a test in two weeks and if it is positive then I continue to take them ’til 12 weeks.

Test on 7th December.

Everything crossed!

18mm!
Beasty!

Mum came behind the secret curtain today and saw the scan.
The follicle was looking mighty big!
Just the one, so no twins for me (only a little disssapointed as obviously less follicles, less chances, but it only takes one!)

Trigger injection at 10pm tonight.
I’ve been doing 37.5iu of Gonal-F so 250iu of Ovitrelle was a LOT!
That button was right out and took FOREVER to push in!

All done now so roll on wednesday and eggs – please stay put ’til there are some swimmers in there for you to meet!

I needen’t have panicked.
My follicles aren’t romping away.
I still only have the one standing out.
It’s grown a whole 4mm since the last scan.
I have another scan on Monday.
If it’s grown another 4mm it will be 18mm and we trigger monday night for insemination Wednesday.
As luck would have it I am off work next week, hows that for timing?!